I have to tell you this week was really tough. There were work lunches I had to participate in that were catered in with no input from the attendees, so my choices were limited and I guessed on calories eaten on those 2 days. I wont lie, I also indulged in the crazy rich, fat full brownie one day for no other reason than I was bored with the topic and struggling to stay focused… so I ate a brownie. It was delicious and guilt ridden. The next lunch was at one of those places that is on Diners, drive-ins and Dives and seriously everything in the place was bad for you… not only was it all bad for you, all the good for you stuff sounded extra terrible next to the regular menu. I was weak-willed and went bad.
The upside is I exercised off most my guilt and kinda got over myself.
In 2 weeks I will have been on this journey for 2 full years and I thought I had moved to the lifestyle stage, but all week I struggled with old feelings of wanting to eat whatever I want, when I want and in obscene quantities. It felt like a diet for the first time in a long time.
This loss is coming at the right time, because I fought so hard against old behaviors and had success, it actually made me feel stronger in my determination to get to my goal weight this year.
I know the struggle will never end, I didn’t get 100 pounds overweight in a week or after a bad year, it was a lifetime of bad habits. I guess that I need to start working on the “some days will be harder than others” aspect of it all and managing it better emotionally.
On a different note, the snowshoes showed up!!!! I can tell you we are like kids on Christmas eve today. I cannot wait to snowshoe tomorrow, I have 2 trails picked out and it will all depend on traffic as to which one we do.
I hope where ever you are, you can get out there hike soon!