I have been decidedly not talking about my weight loss journey and as you can probably guess, for all the bad reasons no one ever wants to talk about it. ….It is not going well.
I want to say that I have been hard-core, and kinda I have been but at the same time I know I am not doing my best. Life happens, and this where I always end up failing. I have spent the last month and half doing a million things outside of hiking, exercising and while my eating hasn’t been perfect, it doesn’t explain why I have gained so much weight back…. The truth is, I have gained back weight and then lost some of what I gained back.
For the past 2 weeks I have been focusing on not quitting, which I would normally do at this stage in pursuit of my goal weight. And OMG, I am great at quitting when it comes to weight loss but I don’t want to quit, I really want to get healthy and I want to do and see more of Colorado while hiking like a crazy person!
The hardest part of being me is, I am truly addicted to food( really bad for you food) and unlike those addicted to substances, I can’t give up food since I need it to live so I am just trying to manage.
I am in a managing stage.
It is not ideal but it is where I am at.
In the end, I had gained back 2.8 LBS and this week I lost .8 LBS which makes me only +2lbs. I am sort of ok with this.
While I fight my desire to quit, I have managed to plan a months worth of hikes to keep me motivated.
SInce I am not on a diet but a life change, I figure that this will always be my challenge in life and if I can’t figure out how to get through today, then how can I possibly hope to get through tomorrow?
This is my confession and my hope, I am 17 months into this journey and I am so much happier for everything I have seen and done in that time. I am holding on to all those summits and spectacular views as motivation to Keep moving forward.
Our hike today was a great motivator and the hike I have planned for next week has butterflies in my stomach because I can’t wait to see it.
I am sorry and I am back on track…I swear!